Looking back at all of my emotions this weekend, I feel like I've been on a rollercoaster. Where I'm at now, though, is actually pretty good. I'm really peaceful. I felt really alone for a lot of the weekend, but I'm realizing that I have to put myself out there more if I want people to be there for me. I can't just hide in my shell and hope someone cares enough to look in and find out how I really feel.
I'm really grateful for my best friend. We have been through hell and back together and today reinforced that we can make it through anything. She is so amazing and people don't appreciate her enough<3
Boys on the other hand are not-so-amazing. I hate having to jump through hoops to make them happy and then I'm the second choice anyways. I deserve to be a first choice. Everyone does. If you are a second choice, that is clearly the wrong guy for you and nothing good could come of that relationship.
I'm feeling surprisingly good right now. I was sad and then I let myself cry and now I feel so much better. It was so nice to stop being strong for a little while. I didn't have to pretend like I had it all together and knew all of the right answers. No one needs to be that strong.
Now, I think I'm just gonna work on putting myself back together. I've sort of lost sight of the important things in the past few months, but I plan on putting everything back in order. As of now, life is good <3 :)
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